Mosquitoland

(and a little bit of fangirling as well because why not) – (this is going to be a long one, brace yourselvesss!!)

Now, the reason I’m writing tonight is because…well, nothing in particular really. I just wanted to – again – pour my heart out. Oh yes! About a book. I’m reading this so called horror story book which is NOT a horror story book AT ALL! Regret? Not at all really. Glad I actually bought this book before the semester break. If not, I would still dying thinking “Is that book really good enough?”. And here I am now, about to write a bloody review on it. Well not a review, just a matter of perspective. I will not tell you the exact title of the book or the name of the author, you just have to go on a wild hunt yourself. 

Like I said ‘a matter of perspective’… this book actually a compilation of horror stories. Hmm… about all the stories, only some are horrific and a true horror story. others? Well, not so much. Much more to fantasy and somewhat cliché modern horror story (which is not horror AT ALL) I’m getting a pissed off here plus, the book is a little bit sexist. Nearly every story so far have the word breasts. I was like this book is somewhat a bloody joke NEARLY. EVERY. DAMN. STORY! The only thing I can do was to shake my head. Hmm. I’m ALREADY 18 for somewhat… oh yeah…the recent story I just read also contain the word ‘penis’. Then again, it’s the author’s right to write what he damn well please… I’m just OOH A MATTER OF PERSPECTIVE… it’s just uhhh *sighs like Jacob* I DON’T KNOW. It just doesn’t seems right I guess. Nearly every story so far has the word breasts.

NOW MOVE ON TO THE GOOD BOOK I HAD READ SO FAR, MOSQUITOLAND

meh. If you think this book is about some land for a bunch of mosquitoes…HAHAHAHAHAH!! YOU’RE WRONG! It’s about a girl name, fuh fuh fuh Mary Iris Malone or in short Mim :) *Ahem* best gila do cerita ni! It’s about her trip to Cleveland, Ohio so that she can see her mother again. I’m not going to spill everything here…because that would be SPOILERSSSS~ best la buku. Dia macam, like you’re going on an adventure, and there’s some sort of deviation. Along the way she meets new people and know more about her step-mother… dah takat tu ja aku nak cerita. Satgi habih pulak. Buku ni lebih kurang emotional jugak la sebab ada satu page tu, aku nak keriau bila aku baca. Aku tak la keriau betui, cuma mata aku masa tu termasuk habuk. Huhuhu. Buku fast forward, straight to the point, tak dak nak sangkut-sangkut haih! Cemuih aku buku jenih sangkut-sangkut. Hahahaha!

*screams internallyyyyy...!!*** sorry i cannot control my fangirling

And like I said there will be a little bit of fangirling..hahaha!! AAAAAAAAAHHH! Aku pun tak tau weh…and then that bears the question “DID YOU EVER ONCE DEPEND ON A FICTIONAL CHARACTER???!” aku tak la selalu sangat…but now YESSSSSS!!! Hhahahhuhuhuu…huwaaa! Teruk sangat hang ni. Jacob Frye…huhuhu. He’s like indescribable.

 Oky sorry, kan aku kata fangirling. Im like… UBISOFT??!!!!!!!!! WHHYYYY!!! JACOB WHYY!!!!!!?? PAUL AMOS WHY!!??!!! Ya Allah, sora dia ni memang kena ah dgn Jacob. Sora jenih serak. Hehe I like. Tak salah kot. Bukannya wujud pun! (Jacob Frye IS the fictional character here). Aku masuk tumblr semata mata nak donlod gif dia ni ja kot. Perhhh teruk nak mampuih!

The drag of this week: ehem kemarin aku mid, okeyla, tgk SPECTRE (as usual, another Bond movie) ngn beli barang2 keperluan gitu, then aku pi la cek harga pensel warna faber-castell 48 batang tu. Terkejut beruk aku tgk RM56. Gila! Mahai sebab dia letak dalam bekas plastic lutsinar tu ja weh. Kalau boh dlm kotak kertas tu murah sikit rasanya. Bawah 50 macam tu. Aku macam bangang ah. Tapi aku tak beli la sbb mahai sangat kot. And besides, drawing aku tak siap lagi. I am currently drawing/sketching (I think) Shay Patrick Cormac. love his black, yellow, and red outfit. Hahaha! Heleh baru lukih dia punya outline jerh.. detail dia..jangan ah…intricate gila. Means halus la. Aku kan jenih lukis detail. Hah! Amek kau! Acecey. Dah KL la sangaaaattt *gaya raqib* tok eh. Mampuih aku wei.

Slightly drag: some of my roommates were watching anime the other day. Idk what anime movie they were watching but there’s definitely screaming. I mean the ‘scream’ literally passed through my earphones.. hmm but who am I to complaint if that’s their happiness. Hmm sayangnya aku punya happiness, aku tak penah ada. Pala booo… hahah! Not really. Banyak ja video. Hmm no. 1 source of my happiness, of course no other Allah and second of all tumblr. Tumblr la ni on point noooo!.

jacob and evie. haih! these two... why so cute u two??! depa kembaq naaaa...!

Emm just finished my maggi tomyam and about to finish my orange flavoured soda.

Cheers and goodnight.

post scriptum: also some dean and sam winchester's gif on my phone. mehahahaha! yes i am also a bloody supernatural fan. beware!!! 

#not my picture      #not my gifs        #kita tag cara tumblr malam ni     #tthank you naowera     #your gifs are beautiful      #forever gonna credits youu!!!!!!!!

How it all went down (read at your own terms)

well my semester break didn't go well as i expected but my nearest and dearest gadgets had been a very companion to me day and night. when i woke up and when i go to bed. it's crazy right. well that's what happened you can't go out of the house. hmm... well anyway, since home is where you or i can get very decent wifi connection, why not tumblr-ing?!!! and yes! tumblr had been such a good companion as well. seeing baes and boos. i love you guys so much. who ever post those people i love, i just wanted to say thank you and keep posting! and thanks for making me happy. 

for a hot-headed and easily stressful person, i am of course highly vulnerable to depression. but i got my BAES! i have lots of baes. :))))) manuel neuer, 

nico rosberg 

and recently nico hulkenberg. nico hulkenberg is just a bae. uhuhuh

and all of them are germannss!!! i don't know i guess i have soft spots for germans :)

you guys also have those people that you love that makes you smile. smile really WIDE! . i got these guys. i don't know why am i writing this. to take it off my heart a little bit. idk. last week it was united states grand prix. so i kinda stay up till wee hours to catch the qualifying session or #Quali. unfortunately, it was cancelled to bad weather. i know i'd seen it. sooo,, the pit lane crew kinda enjoy themselves doing .... i guess...the things they always wanted to do but never got the right weather to fo it. HAH! basically all of these gifs are not mine. not mine. i do not own this.

force india was challenged by sauber

williams had their own rowing crew. hahahah! 

alah hampa niiiiI!!! why so cute doing that???! ada banyak lagi. then there are daniel ricciardo (rikardo) and daniil kvyat (kivyat). just in case you don't know how to pronounce it. 

daniel on the left and daniil on the right. aaahhh i just love dany in this pic. i love both of them. depa dua ni macam adik beradik. depa ada menari do masa hujan USGP. hahahah haduh. aku dah la watch live. memang gelak ah! tak expect langsung kot. muah! tapi gambaq dari USGP tak tau lah kot. tapi nampak macam bukan. apa lagi ek...bukan apa. aku tulis pi la nak habaq kat kawan aku soang ni. lama dah tak kelih. lama dah tak fangirling dengan dia. huhuhu. i miss you bruh. pa lagi haa??? *tgk downloads* uuuu! uuu! assassin's creed syndicate dah keluaq. OMG! im in love.

aku tengok dah walkthrough dia sampai ending. pergh! ending dia! sajis gila doh! Evie and Jacob Frye. Twins yo twins. these two people are the most loveliest and deadliest pair of twins i know in the gaming world so far...that is.  one thing about AC Syndicate that makes me wanna own this game is because...bukan satu benda, banyak benda sebenaqnya. main missions (main game plot), characters mission and investigating (siasat2). side missions dia pun okay. the fight is more brutal and cruel. Evie is just so cute even though she is dead serious with her younger bro. memang best weiii!! tak penah aku fangirl sampai tahap ni! 

uuuuuu *5X heart eyes emoji*

*hmm i could watch this gif for a whole day* ehem! for the record, cuti sem ni aku tgk walkthrough 3 game assassin's creed. gila ak???? dak kot no. hahahahahahahah!!! ac black flag, ac syndicate and ac rogue. tediaaa!!! why are you spilling everything here mate??? idk mate. hahahaharrr!!! i do love the twins and alexander graham bell (dlm ac syndicate, alexander graham bell comey gila hewhewhew) but my favourite overall character so far would be James Kidd or her real name Mary Read. sadis do cerita dia ni. okay back story. first aku tengok ending ac black flag, ingatnya happy ending, edward kenway (main protagonist) seeing all of his friends... then bila dah aku tengok semua episode walkthrough,,,baru aku paham. ending dia mixed emotions...aku menangis do. ending dia lagi emotional dari ending drama tv3 pukul 7 tu. sungguh...hahahaha tah la. gamer's POV. 

so i guess that settles it. so glad i can write/typed this down. who cares about grammar. this post is so long you don't even read it. hah! so i end my post with this gifs...which are not mine..

lewis: *pats 2 times on nico's back*
nico: *pats back on lewis's back 2 times*

ada orang merajuk tahap gaban...aku paham do takpa2 lek2

cheers and good night :)

Lucky

Do you really wanna be someone like me? Someone who is cooped out in her own house for five days straight? Doing the same chores again and again. Someone who is too afraid to ask her own parents if can she go out because the answer is always going to be "No, you can't"? Someone that will easily broke down and cry when she doesn't get something she really, dearly wanted? (I know this sounds a little bit over but I am all about the little things) Someone who has her own license but can't even drive by herself?

I have my own license since March but I haven't drive for more than 7 days yet. Can you... can you believe that?! If I know this thing would happen, I would NEVER bother signing up for driving lessons since the beginning! I do feel jealous at some of my friends. They're hanging out, take pictures together, driving by themselves. Me on the other hand, wash dishes, getting sweaty in the morning doing lots of house chores. Yep, I know all of these are good deeds but I want to break free, doing something I like even if being the most quiet one among my friends

.

It's too ashamed that I've (all of us) been here for more than 5 months, but never got a chance of doing something that I really, really wanted to do. It is hurtful but I take it. Sometimes I am okay. Sometimes I am not okay but that's how the wheel turned. It is not in my will to set things for myself. I'm pretty much feel sad about that.

Moments

So, this is the thing I wanted to write about all day. I was supposed to write somewhere this afternoon but I didn't get a chance to write it since the lappy's battery is dying. What do you see through out 2014 generally? As for me, simple. Ever lasting memories of me with me friends hangout in class or somewhat places around Kangar. Just to be frank, I hadn't been out so much because the 'plan' was pretty out of hand. When my parents wanted to pick me up at that certain time, they will pick me at that certain time. So not much hanging out but when I had the chance...heh, why not kan?

(hanging out with them is a very nice way to waste time actually, you sit down, gossiping-haha-, tell stupid inside jokes, and have a nice hot, soul-comforting meal under the shades of who knows what tree/big tree ;p)

After four days of  long-enough orientation program, we were separated into different classes. I mean, as students, you know, you go to own class. Pfffffttt...talk about the first hour of being with your 'high school' mates. Fast forward three months later, we were kinda okay. It only took one hella of a fight to get the real things settled up. I am not here not to boast my position as a vice class monitor, but as a very concern member of the class 4H. This is because a few years back some teachers might have downgraded this class for who-knows-what reason. Basically, I do not know. 

It was Saturday. So there was this cheering-your-classroom-with-nice-and-beautiful-things day and yeah, I brought some things. A few long hours into the decorating and stuff (I was already prepping myself to go home), and then all hell broke lose. I started shouting at him(will not tell his name) asking where he went? and he replied he went marching. the reason he gave was acceptable. Bro, you could have just tell someone that you're going to a marching practice. So I was kinda embarrassed, I cried and then I go home. Delightfully enough, drink some 100 Plus on the way home. Cheery carbonated cheers to that - 2013.

(At the end of that year, I told them, "Kita kan family!") - because why not! We're really, really close if I to say it so myself. We had bonded.

In 2014, it was delightful. Some of my classmates told me that they went on an early breakfast at Juliana, early lunch at Shala Pizza and so many stuff that they did. Most of them, I think eating :p I was missing all of the action, of the lame yet very advising jokes, and all of the selfies. UH! Hanging with these guys are so therapeutic. All in all, basically, in 2014, it was all about friendship. How far it will last?One more thing, they always had a midnight conversation session in class's Whatsapp group. SO GRATEFUL IT'S STILL ON! The friendship stuff. There was a little bit of highs and lows. The surprising thing was, during SPM, the group was on. Trying to help each other getting through tough questions and things that I didn't know for myself.

(This class does not have any groups or gang)

Memories must not die.

Cheers to that

Turned

I have my own loneliest moments (I believe you had them once too). Thought I wanted to tell you. To get them out of my chest. To all of me friends, this was never ever your fault. Just to be true, I never wanted to be a drag to you. You got more important stuffs to do in which I highly, highly respect. One needs to move on to achieve success. Here we go.

It was the school's annual sports day and I sign up for a couple of sport events which were javelin and disc throw. So, before the big day, I had to stay at school for an afternoon practice with some other students and batch mates. For your information, I had to stay at school for a few days (not that I slept at school, it's just I didn't go home right after school). Not so in my right mind, for a few days at school, I had to go to the surau, alone, went to The Store to get my lunch, alone, and wait in class for nearly 2 hours, alone, accompanied by my old Nokia Asha 302. Hell yeah. Since the class was empty except me being there, I pumped up the music. I mean who the hell cares. Nobody was listening anyway. So, yeah, that's that. The end of event one.

(No need to be understanding or what :P)

The second one happened on Wednesday. So the teacher decided to hold a final meeting for PBSM for 2014. I didn't asked any of my friends if they wanted to go or not because I know for the fact that they will go and that was okay by me. The final session of school finished a bit late today. The meeting start at roughly 3:45 p.m. So, I was kinda...late. 3:15, I think. I don't remember but the meeting was held around 3:30 p.m or so. Since I was late and hungry, I thought, "Hey, I think I'm gonna buy some lunch first. Then perform the prayer and go back to the food stall to pick up my order and then head back to school for the meeting." If you think that happened, you are wrong. It happened oppositely what I imagined. 

You have no any idea how mad, angry, and frustrated I was walking back to school, with an empty stomach and it was raging hot that day that my water supply(water bottle) almost ran out. Then, I thought, "Maybe I can get canned Milo from the freakin' vending machine so that I can feel a little bit energized". It turned out to be otherwise. I didn't get the canned Milo. Even worst than a break-up, with an empty stomach, I walked to the school canteen where the meeting was held and sat there with some other batch mates. The meeting went well. Well, are your friends there like you expected to? No but I was so ever lucky that the meeting was a held in a short time. 

A day or two later, I told Farah and some others during English class. I cried. Tbh, never in my entire life I felt so,so lonely and I have to face it myself. "Allah uji hamba-Nya kerana Dia sayang akan hamba-Nya."

G'night and cheers

I dunno how long I've been away writing personal stuff online. I'll be honest with you. Got nothing to write on so far. So,...but don't worry darlin', I think of something. Well, I am thinking of something. Just wanted you to know whatever it is I posted on this blog means that I did think on a certain matter or just something I would love to share with you.

Night love.