Do you really wanna be someone like me? Someone who is cooped out in her own house for five days straight? Doing the same chores again and again. Someone who is too afraid to ask her own parents if can she go out because the answer is always going to be "No, you can't"? Someone that will easily broke down and cry when she doesn't get something she really, dearly wanted? (I know this sounds a little bit over but I am all about the little things) Someone who has her own license but can't even drive by herself?
I have my own license since March but I haven't drive for more than 7 days yet. Can you... can you believe that?! If I know this thing would happen, I would NEVER bother signing up for driving lessons since the beginning! I do feel jealous at some of my friends. They're hanging out, take pictures together, driving by themselves. Me on the other hand, wash dishes, getting sweaty in the morning doing lots of house chores. Yep, I know all of these are good deeds but I want to break free, doing something I like even if being the most quiet one among my friends
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It's too ashamed that I've (all of us) been here for more than 5 months, but never got a chance of doing something that I really, really wanted to do. It is hurtful but I take it. Sometimes I am okay. Sometimes I am not okay but that's how the wheel turned. It is not in my will to set things for myself. I'm pretty much feel sad about that.