I have my own loneliest moments (I believe you had them once too). Thought I wanted to tell you. To get them out of my chest. To all of me friends, this was never ever your fault. Just to be true, I never wanted to be a drag to you. You got more important stuffs to do in which I highly, highly respect. One needs to move on to achieve success. Here we go.
It was the school's annual sports day and I sign up for a couple of sport events which were javelin and disc throw. So, before the big day, I had to stay at school for an afternoon practice with some other students and batch mates. For your information, I had to stay at school for a few days (not that I slept at school, it's just I didn't go home right after school). Not so in my right mind, for a few days at school, I had to go to the surau, alone, went to The Store to get my lunch, alone, and wait in class for nearly 2 hours, alone, accompanied by my old Nokia Asha 302. Hell yeah. Since the class was empty except me being there, I pumped up the music. I mean who the hell cares. Nobody was listening anyway. So, yeah, that's that. The end of event one.
(No need to be understanding or what :P)
The second one happened on Wednesday. So the teacher decided to hold a final meeting for PBSM for 2014. I didn't asked any of my friends if they wanted to go or not because I know for the fact that they will go and that was okay by me. The final session of school finished a bit late today. The meeting start at roughly 3:45 p.m. So, I was kinda...late. 3:15, I think. I don't remember but the meeting was held around 3:30 p.m or so. Since I was late and hungry, I thought, "Hey, I think I'm gonna buy some lunch first. Then perform the prayer and go back to the food stall to pick up my order and then head back to school for the meeting." If you think that happened, you are wrong. It happened oppositely what I imagined.
You have no any idea how mad, angry, and frustrated I was walking back to school, with an empty stomach and it was raging hot that day that my water supply(water bottle) almost ran out. Then, I thought, "Maybe I can get canned Milo from the freakin' vending machine so that I can feel a little bit energized". It turned out to be otherwise. I didn't get the canned Milo. Even worst than a break-up, with an empty stomach, I walked to the school canteen where the meeting was held and sat there with some other batch mates. The meeting went well. Well, are your friends there like you expected to? No but I was so ever lucky that the meeting was a held in a short time.
A day or two later, I told Farah and some others during English class. I cried. Tbh, never in my entire life I felt so,so lonely and I have to face it myself. "Allah uji hamba-Nya kerana Dia sayang akan hamba-Nya."
G'night and cheers